Don't we wish we could sometimes return to those days of playing endlessly in a pool, outside with friends with no worries other than what we were going to get for dinner that night? I remember being younger and longing to be older.
Lately I have been struggling with some strong emotions and difficult circumstances. I have come to the conclusion that being an 'adult' sure is hard work. No one tells you this when you turn 18, go to college, get married, have a baby...well actually people tell you this all the time but I sure didn't listen. I always wanted more or to be at that different stage...that next milestone.
So here I am and its tough. I love my life and know things could be a lot worse..who are we kidding, Ive been through a lot worse than were I am at right now.
It still gets overwhelming...this morning I hit my knees and prayed the Lord would take it all, take my stress, take my overall strive for control because I just couldn't do it anymore. I don't think I could take on any more stress or issues or changes..and he'll have to do it. That was a few hours ago and I am feeling a little better. Even though there still seems to be a tremendous freight train parked on my chest, I am breathing a little easier right now and still continuing to give the control to HIM.
I just had to write that...had to get it out..and sing to myself...I don't want to grow up, I'm a toys r us kid...while continuing to pray and give God the power, the glory and the control I selfishly try to give to myself...
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